It’s hard to be positive when all you see happening around you are negative stuff.
It’s hard to lift your head high when life drags you down, and you cannot see anymore the light.
But remember, in whatever trials you are in, God works for the good of those who love Him, for those who have been called according to His purpose.
And you are one of them. You believe in Him. You love Him. But you cannot deny that your faith is also shaking.
You ask if God is true, or does He even hear your prayer. You ask why do you have to experience all of these.
The thing is, depression could be a tool by the enemy to ruin your faith in God, but because what the enemy has meant for evil, God can turn it into good — Your depression could be used by God to draw you closer to Him.
Depression could be a way for you to realize that you should not rely on yourself but on Him. Depression could be a way for you to realize the value of community, of the people around you whom you used to neglect unintentionally or not during your happy days, of the people who truly love you but you failed to see before.
You can see the good even while you’re depressed. Depression is a way for you to realize the few people and things that really matter.